I am from Ukraine. Mykolaiv. Last year (January 2021), we bought an apartment with my husband. Our relatives helped us to pay the part of the price.
My father, the builder, helped us renovate the flat due to our needs.
August 2021
Finally, we’ve moved to our brand new, beautiful home.
This was a wonderful time. Living with my husband in the most comfortable flat we can only imagine. We walked near the river and had a great time with my parents and friends.
The 24th of February changed everything. I’m sure millions of Ukrainians lost their family, friends, comfort zone, homes, everything.
We moved to Western Ukraine.
I can work, can read, and can eat peacefully.
But…
I don’t feel HOME anymore.
Here are the bunch of emotions I feel each day. ❤
Fear.
I’m afraid of watching the news to see my home and sweet places distroyed.
Yesterday, I received this photo of my apartment (after the shellings nearby). Hopefully, my neighbors are okay.
Hatred.
Russia has been destroying my lovely Ukraine for centuries. And nothing changed. But there is a lot of propaganda news.
I am sure that only citizens of certain countries can know the situation/conflict/war. So, I won’t argue about who is right or wrong in Syria, Israel, India, etc. I’m not competent in that. But I know what is happening in Ukraine.
I am exhausted from arguing with someone. I’ve just shifted my angry feelings to supporting our culture, volunteers, and army.
Chaos.
As everyone has been talking about the worst. So, I’ve decided to pack the basic things we need to survive. I moved only with the bag with basic clothes and medicines that I had packed two days before the 24th of February.
Everything I loved stayed in my lovely apartment: my books, clothes, yoga mat, kitchen, bathroom, tv, bed, etc. I understood that I am so dependent on material things. 😭
Calm.
The best musician, who replicates my mood and feelings now, is Odyn v Kanoe. Music helps to heal and calm my heart.
Happiness.
I feel happy because I’m with my husband, with my parents, sister and brothers.
We are playing in games, reading and walking with our dog. That helps to distract us from the bad news.
Proudness.
I am proud of everyone who is helping Ukraine now.
Volunteers, territorial defenses, politics, other countries, organizations. I am thankful to everyone. You are doing a lot with sharing news, talking, donating, etc. ♥
Love.
I am the one who loves my country as much as I can. I know our history (in fact, I am a huge fan of history).
And I’m sure this love will win in this war and Ukraine will be free again 💙.
Hope.
I don’t think about the future now. Simply can’t.
The only thing that helps me to stay on track is the Ukrainians. We keep fighting for our freedom, peace, and rights.
I believe in the Ukrainian army, and my only God now is the Ukrainian Army.
Glory to Ukraine! Слава Україні!
💙💛
P.S. I’m so grateful for each supportive message; thank you for reading and supporting me these days. 💪
